My name is Jamie. My life resume holds random titles, of Sports Marketing Coordinator, Hockey Rink Manager, Running Coach, Worship Leader, Musician, Artist, Oil Painter, wife and mother of three. In the midst of all the hats I have worn, I have royally messed up and succeeded in the past and the jury is still out on my current undertakings.
I am a creative.
This blog will have some about my journey in how I have fully embraced calling myself a creative and how that has helped me find my groove. A quick thesaurus check on creative: inspired, visionary, clever, originative (not sure this is really a word but I like it), productive, gifted, original, artistic, imaginative, innovative. Notice, that artistic is in there but it isn’t the whole. For me, identifying myself as a creative has been how I have found my groove. I have been inspired to fully embrace who I was created to be. Finding my groove has a large spiritual element, requires focus, requires scraping away of unhelpful expectations, then walking in it.
Hope you will join me on this journey and ultimately start walking in finding your groove.
There can be great anxiety for me in the question, what do you do? My response, is mom and artist or creative. Typically the reply to that is “I wish I had a creative outlet”, “I wish I could draw, paint, sculpt or even have time to have a hobby like that.” There are so many opportunities to pursue a craft, a sport or any other hobby but never is there time or sometimes a strong enough desire to really make it happen. Sometimes the desire is strong but people will get stuck on I can’t find the time, energy or money, thus desiring or wishing for something different IS the hobby. At least that was true for me.
So where to start? How can you find a groove with something outside of what you do? Often the hindrances of money, time or energy are real barriers, the barrier for me was the fear of sucking. My perception that whatever I was to pursue I needed to be good at it. This fear, held me back for years in just doing. So on some level the thing I “did” is whatever I didn’t suck at the most. Unfortunately, just being capable at something doesn’t mean it fills you up or helps you shine your best self.
Eventually, I jumped into some painting and drawing classes with a very low level commitment. Early on, I was taking a class and the instructor came up to me, asked how it was going while pausing to check out my work. “Ugh, I am so frustrated. Painting just makes me so anxious.” Which she simply replies, “So then why do you paint?”
So that honestly was the starting point. The starting point wasn’t taking a class here and there to see if I liked it or not. That fell more into the category or trying something new or maybe even staying busy. Asking the question, “so why do you paint?”, was the starting point. There is no right or wrong answer to that question. Honesty to the why question will prove the longevity of the pursuit.
If I answered, I paint because I need to get away from my life or family. It is an honest answer but it won’t sustain the pursuit. If the activity sounds just like a nice idea, that is all it ever will be. When I dig a little deeper my answer really identified that I am a creative and I wanted to find a way to express that on a canvas. So here is the starting point…why do you _______?”